Saturday, March 29, 2008

Walking away or sticking it out

A friend said: Run as fast as you can as early as possible. It's a no-win situation and it would just hurt your heart in the process. No talent. No future. Not enough.
But you stayed for reasons you don't know, for reasons you didn't bother to find out.
Johnny said follow your heart and see where it will lead you.
But what if you already knew where it will lead you? Will you turn and walk away? It seems the logical thing to do. Is it foolish to go to a place where you knew would only lead you to a broken heart? Or is it brave to go through with it still? Inspiration or ego, which is which?

Excerpts from Coelho's blog :

Wasn't my dream to be a writer? Then I must continue creating sentences, paragraphs, chapters, and go on writing until I die, and not allow myself to get caught in such traps as success or failure. Otherwise, what meaning does my life have?

Shaken by these alarming thoughts, I find a strength and a courage I didn't know I had: they help me to venture into an unknown part of my soul. I let myself be swept along by the current and finally anchor my boat at the island I was being carried towards. I spend days and nights describing what I see, wondering why I'm doing this, telling myself that it's really not worth the pain and effort, that I don't need to prove anything to anyone, that I've got what I wanted and far more than I ever dreamed of having.
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When I wrote The Zahir, the main character says exactly the same thing: writing is getting lost at sea. It's discovering your own untold story and trying to share it with others. It's realising, when you show it to people you have never seen, what is in your own soul. In the book, a famous writer on spiritual matters, who believes he has everything, loses the thing that is most precious to him: love. I have always wondered what would happen to a man if he had no one to dream about, and now I am answering that question myself.
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One of the characters in Bertold Brecht's play "The Good Person of Szechuan" tells us about true love:

"I want to be next to the one I love.
I don't care what this will cost me.
I don't care whether this will do my life good or bad.
I don't care whether this person loves me or not.
All I want, all I need is to be close to the one I love"

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I am writing (as if!)... and reading/reviewing again... and helping a project...

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My dear cousin passed the bar exam. Yahoo!

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A friend is in a unique relationship, one that is probably looked down by society. 10 years... and still counting...

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Fleur broke up with his boyfriend (again) for the same reason, his boyfriend lied and cheated on her. Who knows if she'll welcome him back again or will let him go for real.. and.. or.. maybe, love herself more. But for now, we'll belt out the heartaches in a song. That's what videoke bars are here for.

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Tetet will get married this May.. and I am going to be the maid of honor. I witnessed how their love affair started to blossom and how it becomes as it is today. Nice story. I am so excited I already have a speech in mind but of course I'm not going to post it here today..surprise..surprise.. surprise. Yeah, it's a nice speech, definitely from the heart, whatever shape it is now..hmm..

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Walking away or sticking it out? Maybe, if you stayed long enough you'll find out.

2 comments:

English Language Tutor said...

hello "pet", i sat next to you at the net bar as you worked on this post. you are obviously a very intelligent, very caring, very committed young lady!! with a huge heart and huuuuuuuuuuuuuuge sympathies! i wish you good luck in life!

wfgsteve@mail.com

Lala said...

tetet is getting married?!? and i'm not invited?!?

*fuming*

hehe, listen to your gut. it will know when something isn't right.

did you write this post in china?

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